Friday, July 31, 2015

Shut it down

FYI... this was a draft that was never published from 2 years ago.

The internet has become one of the most highly intuitive and rapidly expanding places in the world.  I like to call the internet a place, because it has become it's own entity in itself.  Here is a thought to crunch on:  In a world that is filled with physical aspects, we often times forget that our thought process, a single thought, is also a part of that physicality.  Our thoughts have become symbolic for who we are, what we believe, where we are going, etc.  And all of this is wrapped up and highly documented in one single place.  The exponential growth of this place, the world wide web, is something that needs to be looked at from multiple perspectives.  The human beings of this earth are major energy consumers, and will eventually need to find other forms of energy in order to survive and support our physical aspects.  As I look into the theories of evolution, I cannot help but believe that over time our brains, and more importantly, our thoughts, will no longer need the body they reside in.  As we add more and more to the internet we are creating virtual aspects of people.  

Monday, November 10, 2014

Sobriety tool

I am going to rehab. I am sorry to every person affected by my inability to stay sober. I cannot fail my family or friends. I must succeed and become fully my true self. 

Sunday, October 19, 2014

My ears or my brain

I hear a lot, but I don't know if its my ears or my brain.  I won't post what I think I hear, because I don't think that would be right.  That is all.  I am sorry I cannot explain more.

Monday, August 25, 2014


I wish I would designate more time to write posts. Paranoia still thick in my thoughts. I still tempt the demons in hopes I will someday understand. Curiosity killed the cat, I'll never forget hearing one of them say. I am afraid. In my thoughts I am very alone. Apparently psychotic disorder not otherwise specified is an acceptable label in today's society. Medicate me to designate me I guess is the answer?  I love my girlfriend deeply. That is all for my evening ramble. Thx for reading. 

Thursday, August 14, 2014


The poison that is paranoia has overwhelmed my every thought. The only way to silence the inner self is to drink it away. The results are in: I am a crazy person running from myself.

Friday, August 1, 2014


I have a strong suspicion that where we direct our attention, we energetically feed. We provide the focused energy the attention seeking entity desires. Attention being conscious effort, is a very powerful form of energy. I hope others see this one day as I do. 

Thursday, May 29, 2014


My life has become this almost epic journey since listening to my inner self. Learning to let go and press on has taught me more than I can express, and I continue along this path letting the universe be my guide. There are no answers worth pondering if they will leave me with more questions. The cerebral focus diminishes as I fine tune the connection of my soul and body. The entire planet is becoming this singular aspect of recognition in my existence, and I am coming to realize my sole purpose here is to experience the love the world provides, and in turn exuberantly show my gratitude and love as a direct reflection of what I am lucky enough to experience. The transformation from within is transforming the entire planet before my eyes. Never before have I understood so much and felt so content with not knowing the things I once pondered. This ride that is life is the quintessential aspect of what we are all intended to do, and I would like to say thank you to the universe for showing me the way. I love you all as you are and I see the light in all of you. The world is changing, simply because I am intending it to do just that. Namaste.