I frequently ask, why not me? I watch people dying and in the last days of their lives for a living. These people and I connect. Their families and I connect, and I end up with stories about my patients that only push me further into a lack of understanding of my own existence and yet still put a smile on my face as I hear about others lives and how blessed they are. My life in comparison to those I am lucky enough to be a part of is wasted. Oh well, keep moving forward I guess. I am lucky to witness and be a part of others lives and deaths.