I wish I would designate more time to write posts. Paranoia still thick in my thoughts. I still tempt the demons in hopes I will someday understand. Curiosity killed the cat, I'll never forget hearing one of them say. I am afraid. In my thoughts I am very alone. Apparently psychotic disorder not otherwise specified is an acceptable label in today's society. Medicate me to designate me I guess is the answer? I love my girlfriend deeply. That is all for my evening ramble. Thx for reading.